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– Warmly, Honey

The Tools I Used To Survive Widowhood

Fresh Beginnings

The fall of the year instills a desire for a fresh beginning. Our grands start a new school year and our adult daughters regroup in their different organizations or arrive at work with fresh ideas. Our sons similarly get back into the groove.

We rearrange our closets and put dates on the calendars as we think about family holidays and preparing our homes for winter. We are not all fortunate to have a la de da life. Hardships transpire on a regular basis and one situation that is particularly difficult to deal with is widowhood.

A New Lifestyle with Widowhood

For the woman over 50+ who finds herself alone, adjusting to a new and unwanted lifestyle can be a traumatic experience. It is hard to transition from coupledom to singlehood.

For recent widows and those of you who have a difficult time moving into the now, I want to share with you the tools I used to emotionally pick up the pieces of my life. I also want to begin by informing you of a change in our culture.

The trend toward singlehood is on the rise. Singles are becoming one of the largest demographics. 48% of American adults are either divorced, widowed or never married.  We are living longer so there are more widows, but the stigma of being alone has all but disappeared.

Nevertheless, before a widow can reenter society, she likely encounters several bumps in the road. Aside from the emotional trauma of losing a spouse, she is suddenly thrust out of her comfort zone and forced to do things on her own.

How To Survive Widowhood

In one split second in my 40s, I was no longer Mrs. Michael A. Forman. I was a widow. My late husband, also in his 40s, had suddenly passed away from an unexpected heart attack.

The day of Michael’s funeral is a blur. I don’t recall the Rabbi’s words. I do not remember how I arrived or left Michael’s funeral.

Similarly, I don’t know who put a lifesaving paperback book in my hand at the end of the service. The book became my savior as I began a new passage, a new journey back to life.

Tools To Rebuild Your Life

The little paperback lying on the table next to our bed the following morning was How to Survive the Loss of a Love. The book is filled with jewels of knowledge that led me from utter shock and darkness into light. I used the book’s words as tools to rebuild my life. It was no easy task.

It has been proven that you cannot heal emotionally from loss without going experiencing four stages of the mourning process. I went through each one and they boded me well in my ultimate recover.

After a year, I was able to restart my life; however, it took me two years to concentrate again.

I am happily remarried, but the sudden loss of my husband was so paralyzing that I sometimes ponder its long term effects on me. There are long respites, but a loss such as this reappears at certain times.

The 4 Stages to Recover From the Loss of A Loved One

 1. Denial

 2. Anger

 3. Depression

 4. Acceptance

You can purchase How to Survive the Loss of a Love on Amazon. I had the first edition that sold over two million copies. I suggest you purchase the first edition, even if it is a secondhand copy because it is far more compact and literal.

The book explains that you cannot survive the emotional loss of a spouse or loved one unless you experience these four steps.  The main theme throughout the book is to let yourself experience and mourn your loss.

How I Used The Tools My Way

Spending Time Alone

Living in the beautiful city of Honolulu, I walked four miles each morning and four miles at sunset with my pooch at that time. I thought about my life with Michael. I did not hold back my emotions. Crying and sobbing, I grieved alone.

Getting Physical

This was very important in my healing process. I walked to rid myself of stress, to stay fit and to stay healthy. Now you are alone with plenty of time to take care of your body and mind. Choose what is appropriate and discipline yourself to stick with your program.

Your Home Is Your Castle

I was numb from my sudden loss. I could not concentrate therefore I was unable to read or watch television.

But I could find solace and joy in my environment so I intentionally moved out of our home of love and deep family memories into a charming, temporary apartment with palm trees visible from my fourth-floor balcony. I lived near the ocean so I could take in the salty air and listen to the sounds of the ever-changing sea.

I bought orchids and placed family momentos everywhere. Often spending time alone on my balcony, I gazed below at the koi swimming peacefully in the pond. Making a move from a large home to my enchanted apartment was very healing. If you have to move or decide to move, do so with care.

Listening To Your Heart

Have confidence in the inner you. I had faith in my instincts and you can too. No one can get in your head. My instincts told me to spend a year alone and mourn. Respect your comfort level and eventually, you will uncover abundant optimism and hope to reenter the world.

Soul Searching

I was afraid. Worried about my daughters facing life without a father, I knew I was now both mom and dad!

Should I stay in Honolulu or should I move to Chicago to be closer to my family? Questions and more questions whirled through my mind. You will be met with worries. Don’t leap into your decisions–no fast moves for a year.

After several months of indecision and a lot of soul searching, I began to live into my answers. I then made realistic decisions. As this process took one year of my life, please don’t rush your healing process.

One Year to Complete the Four Steps of Mourning

I took a full year to go through the four steps of mourning, the last of which is acceptance.

On the one-year anniversary of Michael’s death, in his memory, we held a service at our synagogue.  I stood between my daughter’s during the Rabbi’s final prayer and I recall the three of us held hands. As I listened to the Rabbi, a year of tears surged down my face.

These tears would not stop. I had no control over them. My face was drenched. At the end of the service, I knew I had accepted the loss of a love.

It was time to move into the present.

For you darlings who are recently widowed or those having a hard time months or years later, I will leave you with this short story.

Proactive Outreach

I have an established relationship with a friend of mine, a widow in Rancho Mirage, California. She has no idea I have been observing her experiences in widowhood. She was married for 60 years.

I watched her from afar as she found her place in the single world. Even with her career, she realized she had to slightly shift her lifestyle.

It has been three years and I still marvel at her. She learned to play cards and she made dates with the women. Proactively reaching out to other widows, she decided she wanted to have a full life so she extended herself and opened the doors to new opportunities.

When I see her, I think to myself, she is such a role model for widows. She could be the poster widow. That is why I am sharing her story. After you go through the four steps, and you must for your own good, march to her drummer, darlings.

How has your life changed through your experience with widowhood? Share in the comments below or join the conversation on Facebook.

Warmly, Honey

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11 Comments
  1. Everything you write about is true. My husband died 6 years ago. The ache is still there, sometimes more profound than others. I sold our home, built 3 new condos, became the mayor of my city, have friends, attend a wonderful church, have 3 grandchildren whom I get to see frequently it still feel very alone. I miss being cherished by my husband of 43 years. This year was our 50th. I became acquainted with a man 15 years younger than me. I’m too old for him-he was opposite from my husband. I miss romance, handholding, kissing, and feeling a thrill when he walks in the door. Looked at dating sites, ugh. I live in a small town and now that I am mayor anonymity is not possible. I’m 72,look pretty good, a little over weight but ok. I’m trying to acclimate myself to being alone, but I don’t like it. Not sure I will ever get to acceptance.

    1. I am impressed with your accomplishments and the luck you have with 3 grands living near by.You are resilient and goal orientated so now it is time to figure out how to find ‘the thrill again.’ I would not give up on the dating sites.I have been told there are some very sophisticated sites out there. Have you researched? And, I don’t understand what you mean ‘you became acquainted with a man 15 years younger. Would you feel differently about him if he was 15 years older? You know age is just a number. Let’s communicate if you care to. Warmly, Honey

  2. Thankyou honey for sharing :)its very true all different losses death divorce job ect…and u are so right u need to take time to grieve to recover 🙂

    Have a great weekend with America and Shelley 😉

    L

  3. I am not a widow, yet, but I have been dealing with Alzheimer’s Disease for the last five years. Every day that another piece of my husband dies, I am widowed from that part of him, of us, and I go through the grieving process of losing that piece. It seem that every day, or at least every week, I go through the grieving process of yet something else that is lost. It’s hard to effectively get to the fourth step when you can’t move beyont steps 1 to 3. I appreciate your stories and advice. Thank you.

    1. I understand how you are feeling. Thank you for expressing yourself openly and with feelings. I have an online network with several different groups on varying topics. Would you be interested in starting a grieving group for women who whose husbands or significant others or parents are suffering from Alzheimer’s Disease? If so please write to Susan. Her email is pr@honeygood.com and she will fill you in on the honeygoodnetwork and if you are interested in joining another group or starting your own she will help you. Explain to her I sent you to her. Warmly, Honey

  4. My husband passed unexpectedly just over two months ago. In this time of corona virus and self-isolation, I am having such a hard time being home all the time when going to work was actually a pleasure. The biggest and most unexpected thing I am dealing with is fear. Fear of so many things I never gave a thought to before. I was never a fearful person and I always knew Michael had my back. Now its just me, just me to take care of the house, the cars, the dogs, the finances, and I could go on an don. I cry myself to sleep every night and talk to Michael all the time. I hope he hears me because there was so much left unsaid. We had 35 years of marriage but that was not enough. I just never thought I would be left alone like this.

  5. I lost my husband 01/24:2020 to Pancreatic Cancer ! He had just turned 60 ! He lived 14 months to the date which is what the Doctor had given him ! We were married 38 years and I knew him 4 years before that ! I agree just as these ladies have said ! It’s the fear and loneliness that gets me ! I have a Memorial outside in my flower bed for him ! His dog Jack and I sit outside and talk to him ! He has visited me in Angel form thru feathers, coins, the clouds, music and warmth ! I miss him so much ! 😭 Some days are harder than others ! I am a survivor and I have my daughters and grand kids to keep me busy ! I just miss his touch and his warmth ! ❤️🙏😭

    1. Please purchase the FIRST edition ( even a used one) of the book I mention in my story. It will help you, I promise. Also, go to my web site, honeygood.com and in the bar under my name hit the word about. There will be a drop down. Tap on the second line and you will go to a page that has a podcast on widowhood. I was interviewed by KEEP IT JUICY. Tap on that and listen to how I went through widowhood, in my own words. I understand how you are feeling. You are in mourning for your beloved husband and this is of course natural. Listen to your feelings. Listen to your heart. Follow it. The recovery from loss takes a very long time. Let it proceed naturally. My thoughts are with you. Sending my love…Warmly, Honey

  6. Thank you for creating this website. Widowhood is the one thing I feared most in life because that meant I would have lost the love of my life. Very sadly, I had to face this fear two years ago when I lost my husband.

    To Carol Motl: Thank you for sharing your story. I lost my precious love to pancreatic cancer too, but he passed only five weeks after being diagnosed. We, too, were married 38 years. It was like watching a horror show in slow motion, as I sat by his side and watched this evil monster suck the life out of my husband. I will never be the same—you won’t either. Although it’s been two years ago, the pain at times is still excruciating. Your loss is still relatively new. Grief has no timetable. Your journey is different from the author’s and mine, yet the grief journey and road is daunting and most often is a solitary path.

    While I’m better at keeping my emotions under control now and moving forward in life, there comes a day when the loss of my love and the deep pain and grief wash over me like a tsunami. Give in to those feelings, and every day try your best to keep the forward motion. Reach out to others. Feel free to communicate with me. Our stories seem similar.

    All we widows are now part of a sisterhood we never asked to join. I’m so saddened to read your stories and know your hearts are broken too.

    1. Dear Julie, Your note to Carol was so helpful. “Give into your feelings” is profound. So many people in mourning do not. The loss of a love is 100% debilitating. Did you think about taking Yoga. I am starting. Come join my Private Facebook Group, GRANDwomen with Moxie. Every Wednesday I have a ZOOOM. The women on GRAND are wonderful. Where do you live? If you join let me know in a comment. I would love to have you. I know exactly how you are feeling. I understand. Warmly, Honey

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