Big News! I am releasing a brand new e-book in March. The subject matter is Estranged Adult Children. Healing from estrangement is possible. My new e-book takes a good mother from shock to acceptance and shows her how to pick up the pieces of her life and thrive.
While writing this e-book, I reflected on my life as a good mother of estranged daughters and decided it was essential for me to become the witness, the judge, and the jury.
Because, isn’t it a fact that though a good parent’s ‘crime’ does not fit the punishment, there are two sides to every break-up? Communication is necessary to ensure reconciliation and higher-than-average expectations from a parent often come into play. The in-laws can play a role, too. Or, an adult child may want to talk but feels hopeless and needs better communication skills. They may feel it is more accessible to leave the nest than have a feared confrontation. They just want out. But in their heart of heart, do they?
There are a variety of reasons why adult children become estranged. Unfortunately, this phenomenon is rampant. Recently, The New York Times estimated that there were over 67 million estranged parents. The list is growing. In these situations, everyone is a loser.
If you are one of the millions of mothers affected by estrangement, I invite you to join my private Facebook Group: Estranged Mothers and Grandmothers: Millions Strong.
REASONS FOR THE ESTRANGEMENT
The reasons for estrangement are as diverse as the people experiencing it!
It could be attributed to the adult child’s expectations of his or her mother’s role, or the lack of communication between adult child and parent. Maybe we can blame the unfortunate family unit breakdown in society. The estrangement could be connected to the dysfunction in the family because of divorce, remarriage, or the death of a parent, jealousy, money, in-laws, mental health problems, his or her husband, and the list goes on.
AS A WITNESS
I am a good mother with estranged adult children.
Over seven years ago, my daughter told me four words: “Mom, you wouldn’t understand.” But I would, and I feel she knows that.
Truth be told, and I am sitting on the witness stand: This daughter of mine lacks communication skills when put to the test. In my heart of hearts I know, she prefers me out of her life and out of the lives of my grandchildren. Her actions are her weapon and burden.
I know my daughter, and I don’t think she rests easily. She captained a ship of innocent family players. Her children and my grandchildren, who naturally show loyalty to their mother. This is very unfortunate for us all.
If my daughter had wisdom, she would show her vulnerability and end this onslaught and call me and say, “Mom, I want to sit down and have a heart-to-heart talk.” She knows I would open my arms and welcome the discussion. Unfortunately, she has chosen to live with her pain and create pain for her mother and the grandmother of her children.
As the witness on the stand, my mind is filled with unpleasant emotions: shock, sadness, loneliness, anger, and enragement towards myself for not putting a stop to her foolhardy mission where nobody wins and everyone loses.
Like many good mothers, I do not know the actual reason(s) for the behavior. I can only surmise and take the steps to heal from estrangement.
STRUCK BY SHOCK
When I became a rejected mother and grandmother, I was caught off balance. The feeling of rejection took my breath away, and I felt like an undercurrent in the sea pulled me under; I could not see my breath. When I came up for air, shock ran through me, and all I could say was, “Oh no.”
This is the beginning of the eighth year of our estrangement. My grandchildren and I have missed ‘our right’ to enjoy one another.
As the ultimate ‘see the glass half full woman that I am, this has been a unique period of pain and an opportunity for self-reflection. Shock does that.
For eight years, I have sought to understand where I went wrong in our relationship and how to move forward without a family. To replace shock with acceptance.
LESSONS OF SHOCK AND GRIEF
Over time I have learned that all consciences are unequal, though I question why. A subtle distrust of others’ motives has affected my behavior causing me to become far more selective in my relationships. I have learned you have to mourn the loss of children who are still living before you can see the horizon. Most recently, I learned never to stay silent with my wants and desires and for what I believe in. Silence is not always golden.
I feel that I am worthy while having spent hours reflecting on my character, and I understand it is therapeutic to unburden feelings. It is healthy to stew over family situations and even boil over! Most importantly, I know even with my flaws, my so-called crimes do not fit the punishment of estrangement.
I am proud that I raised my children with sound values, but I am sad that they are so confused that they cannot see the forest from the trees. Not only are hurting their mother, but they are also setting a terrible example for their children.
Mothers die, and children mourn. My daughters have a mom, and they have buried me.
MY HAND ON THE BIBLE
While writing my e-book, I placed my hand on the Bible and sat in the witness box. Good mothers, you will be able to do the same in the workbook in my e-book. As wise women we know every situation has two sides: right or wrong; the estranged adult child leaves the nest for a reason. When we write our thoughts down, we help ourselves find the tools to reunite with our estranged child, siblings, friends, or other family members and recognize positive solutions so we can go on with our lives.
As good moms, I think we should aim for reconciliation. It is positive thinking. Once we are past the daunting anger phase and spend time self-reflecting, we should replace our anger with good thoughts, care for our minds and bodies, and live our lives to the fullest.
Yes, anger will come and go, but instead of sitting on the front burner of your mind, it is now on the back burner giving you space to examine your self-worth.
ON THE WITNESS STAND: HEALING FROM ESTRANGEMENT
Looking back over time, beginning with the death of their father, I believe one daughter misses me and thus her anger, and the other daughter, though she loves me, is glad I am no longer a part of her large family.
The death of their father and remarriage to my ultimate concierge was a significant loss for both, and the daughter who started the estrangement was also unnerved by my website, honeygood.com, and disapproved of my stories. I think the loss of two parents, though I am alive, and honeygood.com created the schism. One daughter missed me terribly even though she moved with her family out of state, and the other, who started the schism in my family said, “Mom, you wouldn’t understand.” A total cop-out as far as I am concerned. As I stated, she wanted me ‘out.’ Everyone lost, including her.
MY ERRORS
- I didn’t understand that a child is always a child, whether six years old or 60. Now I do.
- I fell in love and remarried. Mourning for my late husband lasted a year and a day. I married a year later.
- I put my ultimate concierge first and created a solid and loving marriage while simultaneously creating a schism with my daughters. They missed me. My husband was not like their father.
- My Silence. I should have stopped the daughter who started the estrangement. I should have driven to her home and said, “Let’s talk and solve the situation.” Instead, I took the high road — I sent very loving gifts with notes to her home. For seven years, I kept my silence with the daughter who initiated the family estrangement. I thought it would go away.
TO THE JURY
I take responsibility for my errors, and have paid dearly for them—almost 8 years.
Despite many attempts to call for meetings, my several requests have been turned down.
My daughters’ expectations of their mother do not fit my punishment.
I think their expectations need examination through verbal communication with their mom.
I rest my case.
THE VERDICT AND THE FUTURE
The future is not ours to see. But everything is possible with optimism, attitude, knowledge, experience, and a loving heart (the recipe for my favorite emotional potion). That is how I live my life, and … I can confidently say that.
No one will ever rob me of my smile, love of life, love for others, and gratitude; I count my blessings daily. I am a fierce woman over fifty who says this with pride, a big smile, and naturally, wearing red lipstick and my favorite perfume, Baccarat 540!
Copy my attitude, good mothers! Amen.
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Honey, my heart breaks for you. Look how you treated your own dear mother all those years. Like the Queen she was. Is there there anyone who can “speak” for you? Like a professional who can intercede. My prayers are with you as always.
That may be just what I should do. I will think on that. Thank you. xo Honey