My Private Life In Self-Isolation
Naturally, I am uncomfortable that the world population has been dealt a catastrophic blow with the sudden appearance of the life-threatening and extremely contagious virus, COVID-19. In all my conversations with family and friends, the first words mentioned are, “How are you and your family?” So, I want to discuss how I am really feeling and how I take care of my mental health during this pandemic.
I am beginning to question the statements of are so-called authorities and I am feeling vulnerable. I am beginning to question procedures that have and continue to be put into place. As well, I assume most of you are questioning what is truth, what is fiction, and whose opinions seem the most logical. When a catastrophe strikes we want to hear strong voices give us strong answers. We are all uncomfortable when we listen to answers that change daily because are minds are adrift in understanding what are the best options to take to protect those we love. So, we feel unstable and vulnerable. We feel we have lost control over our lives and to a large degree, we have.
On a Happier Note
On a happier note, I am in control of my personal lifestyle. I do not feel vulnerable because I have the power to bring stability and happiness into my home. So do you. And, though I would love to be out and about with my Ultimate Concierge and our family, we have adjusted to our new life. We are all grateful we have one another and we are in constant contact, talking and texting often across the miles.
My husband Sheldon Good and I take daily walks with our pooch, America. We work out, we Zoom for work and play. I write my stories and engage with women, who have become my friends on my social media channels and in my new private Facebook group, GRANDwomen with Moxie… Where loneliness disappears. I am trying desperately to teach myself how to do live videos for my Instagram site and all my channels. But, I find it so difficult to video at the same time I am talking and walking, that tears and frustration comfort me. But I am determined to become somewhat skilled.
Life In Isolation
My Ultimate Concierge and I watch great series and documentaries and we find cooking together (I cook… he watches) fun. We read together and I spend time outdoors alone with nature, my second love after my family. Actually, I am so busy, I am dizzy and so is my Ultimate Concierge, with Zoom meet-ups and conference calls and sharing our thoughts with each other. I guess you might say we are busy and dizzy and frazzled all in one day!
We have the power to live our lives within the perimeters of our home to our liking so our mental health and emotional health is an A+. In all sincerity, our private life is about as good as it gets under the circumstances. Our large family as of today is well. What more can we ask? Nothing. But…
I Feel I Have Lost Control as a Citizen in My Country
On the other hand, in all honesty, I am beginning to abhor what is taking place outside our home because it is not only affecting me but every American. And, I care.
Like many of you, I am upset with the Chinese government. And, I am in favor of a huge worldwide push to punish the government for their misdeed that is affecting the entire worldwide population.
I don’t know how you feel about our government. For my part, what alarms and disappoints me is the behavior of most of the people we elected; The men and women that serve in our local and state governments, and in the Congress of the United States. I am just starting!
Feeling the Frustration
I do feel that during these catastrophic times, our news outlets, our press, and even some of our scientists, have no right to play politics with our health and financial security. I feel they are threatening me and every citizen and the survival of our great democratic society. They are more concerned with their political survival than us. I feel victimized. As an American citizen, I should be proud of my state and local government and the United States Congress and all news outlets. I am not because they are not partnering together for the emotional and financial well-being of every American. It confounds me that the House of Representatives, who can have social distancing in their great hall, are not returning to work to help the people who elected them until May 11th!
Having Difficulty Staying Upbeat
So, Darlings, now that I have touched upon what is taking place in my mind, I am having difficulty staying upbeat. I know over 300 million citizens of our beloved America is (in some manner) probably feeling like I am. They too are wondering what next as they watch most of our politicians concern themselves with their personal ‘wants’ instead of the needs of the citizens who elected them. They should return to work, and at the very least, pass a bill to fix our national roads and highways and bridges during this quarantine period when we are all in our homes! Look at all the people they would be putting to work who are now going bankrupt through no fault of their own.
To sum up how I am going about handling my emotional wellbeing…
I am expressing how I honestly feel because during the journey of my life I have learned that storing unhappy feelings is not the answer to living a fit, healthy, and happy life.
I am Sad, Angry, Sickened, Frightened, and Disillusioned… But I Express It!
I am overly sad for my countrymen who are suffering; I am angry at local and state governments and the Congress of the United States. As well, I am sickened by the American press who no longer report all sides of a news story truthfully that would allow every citizen the opportunity to make an intelligent decision.
I am frightened when I hear our great scientists talk the talk and then… change the talk. I am disillusioned that my rights as an American citizen seem to be taken away from me. And, I am unprepared to live in a country that has control over my life, my family’s life, and every American citizen’s life. No government has the right to control my health, my lifestyle, my grandchildren’s schooling, and/or to tell an American they cannot work, taking away their right to survival and self-respect.
What We Can Do to Lighten Emotional Stress
I am of the belief that it is important to discuss openly your feelings even when you are under attack from others who feel differently. Why? Because you are being true to yourself. Because what matters is what you feel. I call this emotional honesty. It’s important for your mental health.
When I was widowed and I had Cancer I was always true to my feelings. I could not be any other way. I never forced myself to feel happy until I genuinely recovered and once again felt happy. And, I never forced myself to be happy in front of my friends. I was distraught and I let myself be distraught. I let myself grieve over the loss of my late husband and my health. Emotional honesty led me back to happiness. Emotional honesty should be the principal of one’s life.
I am glad I wrote this story even though some of you do not agree with me. I was emotionally honest with myself and that’s what matters. When you take an opposing view, speak out, and express your feelings; emotional honesty gives you positive power and positive power brings you happiness and strong mental health. You can’t ask more than that, can you Darlings?